This sort of sucks.

It's 1:15 am...why am I still awake? Dom is working overnights and Caroline is at Walt's. Sort of sucks to be home alone...lonely...quiet.

I'm not sleeping because I'm avoiding waking up. I have to wrap up plans for the 2nd grade Halloween party on Tuesday. I have to get Brownies moving. I have to write 2 reports. I have 3 appointments tomorrow...none of which I particularly care to go to. Sort of sucks.

I remember about 6 1/2 years ago when I was pregnant with Caroline and I planned to stay home mostly...and work maybe 5 hours a week or something. HA!! The best laid plans, right? How bad did I screw things up by divorcing Walt??? I'm better as a person, for sure. But at what cost...financially it's pretty much wrecked me even all these years later. Caroline is going to have to spend the rest of her life bouncing back and forth between us. How bad is that for a kid???? Sort of sucks.

Bad day at work....15 years of dealing with families in shambles has taken its toll. Why do they have to be mean when I make a mistake?? Jeez...Too freaking emotional today for me. I need to find something else, I think. If only I could really follow the calling of my heart. Unfortunately, the calling of Caroline's and Dom's stomaches is louder. Sort of sucks.

I guess I should go to sleep now...have to face tomorrow eventually, right? Sort of sucks.